Hope you all have been happy and been having a good time!
I thought I would give you a little update on how I have been recently… (October / November)
To be honest recently has been mixed emotions. I have been depressed and emotionally unstable. I went through a period of not wanting to eat anything then going through another period of wanting to eat everything. I have arguments, I have cried but I have also pulled myself up.
On top of all that I missed a period that brought up a million worries – as you can imagine. I had just started my new pill and had been getting really bad cramps but no period… I was bricking it!
I went through a really bad period of where I wanted to self harm again and never be home. I had to constantly have someone with me as I had no idea what I would do if I was alone..
However I have been doing so much better (other than being really sick and throwing up all the time – mank right?)
But work is going really well – insanely busy, but I feel so comfortable in the office now and I feel like I finally fit in! I love my work ❤
Finally doing better for myself and feel like I am helping people along the way.
I just had to remember through the bad time – that there is light at the end of the tunnel and that things can be better. There is no point of worrying or self harming as it DOES NOT help.
If any of you guys need help or going through a rough time – I am here if you need to message me. Even if you don’t need to speak to someone please just remember you are worth it! There is nothing worse than feeling useless and nothing.
I hope you all have amazing upcoming weeks and remember CHIRSTMAS IS HERE SOOON!
Lots of love, Sam x