I have finished the longest chapter in my life!! I started school when I was 2 years old, I went to quite a crappy primary school, education wise, but I had the best memories there. My nan was working in the school the whole way with me so I always had an escape room if I needed to have some alone time. But, I also had really funny and great teachers along the way. Instead of teaching their students knowledge the school decided to teach us common sense and how to adapt to new surroundings, I wouldn’t have it any other way. However my school life wasn’t always perfect…
When I went into high school I became popular quite quickly, I met new people and learnt to get along with practically everyone. I was the naughty kid for the first few years. Whereas, when I reached the mid point of year 9/ beginning of year 10, I suffered from bullying. I got bullied for having bad skin and for being me. I soon realised I had anxiety soon after as I didn’t want to be at home or at school. When I went to the doctor they automatically said I’ve always had anxiety and it has basically just been a ticking bomb ready to explode. At this point I done things I shouldn’t of done but I knew I had no escape.
School has changed me big time, at first I was the big popular girl that was loved by everyone then I turned into the girl that was alone and hated herself. Even though I still get these self hatred thoughts on the daily, I have learnt on how to control them and learn not to hurt myself just because anxiety is starting up again.
For anyone who hasn’t finished school, don’t assume every high school life is like this because it isn’t, I was just unlucky at the end. I loved school up until a certain point, but there is no way on earth was I letting bad events affect my grades and my future. I practically told everyone to wind their neck in so I can put myself first instead of their pettiness.
However, now that I finished school I feel so more relieved now! I won’t miss the majority of people in my year but I will miss the teachers and staff that stuck by my side day in and out just to make sure I was healthy and happy. Teachers even said to me if I can’t put education first its okay, as long as I’m healthy and happy that’s all they care about… I could not of asked for better teachers and staff at my school!
If you have ever been bullied or currently is, speak to someone. Don’t let the low lives pull you down because you are the big guy that is obviously affecting them more as they are wasting their time belittling you! You are the bigger person!
Thank you for reading, I didn’t want this post to be all sad but this was my school life.